Jon Renau Zara II – using the proper tools is really important

My mistake with taking care of the Jon Renau Zara hair and how it got fixed. Jon Renau Take Two.

If you order one of these amazing products, ORDER THE PROPER TOOLS ALONG WITH THE ORDER RIGHT AWAY. Otherwise you’ll be needing something and you won’t have it and you will be tempted to substitute – bad idea as you’ll see below. 🙂

After lots of tears, I’m pretty happy with the outcome.

Stills from an upcoming video – I’m so happy with my hair

Only a fellow alopecia or cancer fighter could understand my happiness right now. Or a close friend.

I am compiling a fun video with a lot of different options for those wanting to see what you can really do with a custom hair piece like this.

Alopecia and Jon Renau, my new hair by pattiespearls

I have briefly mentioned before that I have alopecia. It has been a long battle with lots of expensive medications and lots of styling and cutting and worrying.

I need a break.

I am starting a new program right now but there’s no guarantee that it will work. If it does great.

But for now I need a break.

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As anyone can tell you who’s dealt with it (and a lot of people completely lose all their hair in a very short amount of time), it’s painful. And it’s lonely. Nobody else seems to have the problem.

I never seriously entertained getting something “artificial.” Extensions maybe. They are all the rage right now. But my hair is too thin for extensions and they can damage your hair.

I talked to the sweetest lady, Patti (, who is an expert on the whole subject. She customized this hair for me. It’s my color, but with highlights, since I always get them anyway. This is the Jon Renau Zara, video below.

Call their number on their website if you just need to talk or if you have questions. They’re amazing. Not like the big companies who you won’t feel comfortable sharing your personal story with. You’ll get Patti or one of the other 2 or 3 people who work there.

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Beautiful brokenness

So I like eyeshadow and foundation. So what? Don’t most girls?

Or did this love of pretty things come from being denied them most of my life, or maybe I’m trying to compensate for the constant battle I have with alopecia. Or maybe both.

I started searching on the internet and the wordpress blogs: alopecia. I found some beautiful young ladies who suffered from this at a very early age. Each one was diagnosed with it and said the doctor said it was triggered by stress. Some wear beautiful realistic wigs. Some choose to go with rockin’ head gear or simply wear nothing on their heads at all.

And I found this touching beautiful article. It has some slightly traumatic pictures of ways these women were scarred.

We’re not perfect…so what?

photo credit to

“my scars are part of who am


These four women’s stories touched my heart deeply. I have been doing a lot of thinking about the whole subject lately. I have thought a lot about the people who go to an extreme and say women’s beauty is inward and if you like lip gloss and mascara you’re obsessed with outer beauty. I heartily disagree, as every woman in the world wants to be beautiful and these things enhance your natural beauty, bring it out – show you that you are beautiful, too. And then there are the people who are so obsessed with outward beauty that there fragile little tiny inner selves make you nauseated. I am thinking of a couple people who will remain nameless. These people often don’t know where to stop, they have endless plastic surgeries and they can’t hold their head up unless they look like a hollywood star. I can’t stomach these people.

There’s a lot of freedom to be yourself in between these two extremes, and part of my reason for this blog is to help people find that middle ground.

So in finding that middle ground, we might need to stare in the face the stories of beautiful women who are facing difficulties that, if we were facing in a sudden heartbeat, might make us feel like we could never feel beautiful. I hope I’ve said that sensitively. And while we’re faced with the beautiful realness, humanity and depth of stories, we should realize we are SO much more than what society defines as good looks.