I’m awake long before my alarm usually goes off. This never happens. I’m always tired. And I’m beginning to understand why people like Bessie Blount and Michael A. Keropian achieved fame. I think they should be more famous.
“Muscle memory,” my physical therapist explained, is what makes your muscles tense up when you’re tense. Other people may have learned a different reaction to stress. Mine is always the same – a certain few muscles around my neck and right shoulder tense up.
She said she cannot help me manage stress – and though this is probably true of her it is not true of the therapy itself. By training my muscles to not tense up, I’m forcing my psyche and my body to deal with stress a different way. This even gets my spirit involved.
C.H. Spurgeon said something about how our bodies can affect our spirits, but I cannot find that quote now.
When something overwhelmes me, I tense up, and then resent the source of the tension. The last time a situation threatened to destroy my physical well-being, I reacted a different way. I didn’t let it control me. I took charge and controlled it. I’m guessing this is because I had not already started the downward spiral that takes control once the muscles on my neck and right shoulder are so tight it feels like I’m in someone’s grip. The “situation” seemed surprised. So was I.
I feel like I’m floating when I come home from appointments. In combination with other victories I am experiencing in my life, I feel like I am beating the monsters in my life. My mind is actually clearer and I can think through situations.
What are your default reactions to stress? How have you learned to deal with them or experienced healing?